we met by chance, i heard you out just from kindness, started talking for business, attraction started from the crazy rough wild sex….and some where in between him being the biggest asshole and me being sweet & caring yet stern we fell for each other. I scared you and you tried to fight the feelings because you werent ready or prepared for anyone like me and you confessed that the boy with no feelings was falling hard and i got scared, i dont do feelings or emotions which is why everything between us was great, i thought it was straightly sexual….we werent official and i hadnt seen you in 3 days i went and saw a old friend, i was freaking and when you asked where i was, was i supposed to lie? it ruined everything… i finally found someone who showed me i still had a heart and it wasnt demolished after my first relationship six years ago and although his lifestyle was scary, a lil illegal, and didnt leave us alot of time together i was gonna follow my heart…..until he told me i hurt him and it wasnt fixable. i made him feel something he wasnt willing to feel and after the fact he wanted to make sure i no longer had any chance and hurt just as bad as him. i couldnt resist calling or texting, begging to talk to me and he isnt the kind to forgive so i deleted his number…. i miss him and think about him every day, think about what it could of been, it really hurts, im not the type to hurt…exspecially over a man. i just wish i could see him :(
"You are the first morning thought, the last evening sigh, and every goddamn thing in between."